drunk post

It's almost 4 in the morning and I just got back from the bar. I really love Chicago. I honestly think moving here was the best thing I have ever done for myself. 4am bars on a Monday, friends that will accompany you till those wee Tuesday morning hours; it doesn't get any better.

I had a really long talk with J tonight about pretty much everything. She was one of the first people I admitted to that the guy I was in love with broke my heart. For me, that's by far the most vulnerable thing I have ever said to anyone. I never even admitted to the person that I was in love with them, let alone someone else. To talk about my emotions is something I'm just not comfortable doing. Talking to J is like talking to a psychologist. I just feel so much more optimistic about life afterwards. She explains to me why I feel the way I do sometimes, mostly because we're the same person. She knows what I want out of life without me having to tell her. It's so much easier talking to someone who understands what I'm saying without having to actually say it. It's people like her that make me grateful for my life here. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her and the others who have gotten me through this. I truly love those who have listened to me ramble and rant throughout the past year. I don't know what I would have done without them.

On to other news, I'm 95% sure I have a new apartment come August/September. My friend and his girlfriend are moving out of their 1 bedroom + den when their lease is up and I'm most likely taking over... for the glorious price of $690/month. When I go and look at it next week I'm going to see if the den is big enough to be a second bedroom for a potential roommate. Even if it isn't big enough, it's still $200 cheaper than what I'm paying now. This year, things are so amazing for me. I started the new year with amazing people and such an open outlook on 2009. With the economy being how it is, I've had no issues with money so far. Rent is guaranteed for the next 5+ months due to my savings account. I have a tuition reimbursement coming to me at the end of May, a promising new apartment that I hear is HUGE. I'm so excited for what the future brings. Days can go by and I don't even think about the past, I can just smile at how amazing my life has become and I can't wait for the future.

With hope...